Last week, a colleague used the term 'beat up' to describe how this year feels. I can't stop thinking about it.
Last week, a colleague used the term 'beat up' to describe how this year feels.
I can't stop thinking about it.
It's a perfect description.
But I can't explain exactly why--
in a way that makes sense at least.
Maybe it's the roller coaster of emotions--
good days and really really bad days.
And many many decent days.
Maybe it's that 10 minutes of solid effort from some students
feels like a win-- but will that really go over on my
evaluation or standardized test scores?
Maybe it's just never feeling good enough.
Maybe it's feeling like I have to beg and plead
with students on some days
just to do any work,
anything at all.
Maybe it's just too exhausting.
Maybe it's because some days, some hours are just so absolutely wonderful
you remember exactly why you are a teacher and hey,
you are pretty dang good at this gig--and then BAM!
Something happens and you question that entire feeling you had mere seconds ago.
Back and forth and back and forth
Like a ping pong
Or a tennis ball
Back and forth and back and forth.